God says that we are fearfully and wonderfully made.
We are never forsaken. He is always there. We do not need to fear him in the aspect of being afraid but should revere Him. His love knows no limits.
He knows what's best for us. The life of a Christian is a life of being moulded into being like Him. It's full of minor and major surgeries.
We, like Job, may never understand this side of Heaven, as to why we have been through what we have. But I can promise you that God causes all things to work together for good for those who love him and are called according to his purpose. That's God's promise. It doesn't say we will always enjoy it. It may be something we go through is only for someone else to see.
We are also promised tribulations in this life. Not all forms of blessings are in worldly goods. Sometimes a blessing is only in knowing that a life was changed.
Don't overcomplicate what it means to be a Christian. Jesus said to come as a Child. Just listen and obey. Do as we are told. Love unconditionally. Put God first.